Long time no see, right? Today I'm writing a really personal post and it's one I wanted to do for quite a while. That being said I have absolutely no idea how to articulate myself right now and I need to just get this all of my chest. Immediately, so it seems.
For the past year I have been struggling with depression. During the summer of 2015, my mood and mental state very gradually started to decline, for no apparent reason. I didn't have a clue what was going on and I blamed it on everything from the weather to watching too much Jeremy Kyle! But ultimately, I ignored it until the point where it could no longer be ignored. I was so scared as to what happening to me and I felt like I was going insane and that everything was spiralling out of control.
The onset of depression timed perfectly with the start of the new school year. And this wasn't just any school year, this was the Leaving Cert. Now anyone will tell you that the Leaving Cert is difficult but being in a depressive state made coming to school feel like a daily trip to hell and back. My school work started to suffer massively and so did my blog. I really wanted my blog to save me. I thought that if I could divert my attention to a hobby that didn't require getting out of bed, I would get better. It sounded like the perfect solution! But unfortunately life doesn't always work out the way you want it to.
Thankfully, I am feeling much better than I was before and I'm now on medication and am seeing a psychotherapist, however I still have days that are worse than others.
I do realise that this post isn't very eloquent and probably made no sense but I felt like I had to make a post discussing my depression before I could make anymore posts. And that reminds me, I really do want to get back into blogging. There was a while where I couldn't do anything and I debated whether I would ever return to the blogosphere, but as it turns out I missed it. I enjoy the whole process of blogging. You get a buzz out of taking photos, editing them, writing up posts and seeing the whole thing come together. Nothing is better than seeing something grow from being an idea scribbled on a scrap of paper to essentially an article on your own piece of the internet!
Thanks for reading and I hope to see you back around these parts very soon.